GOD?

GOD is a complex "concept" "thing" "person" - we 'need' to package that for our psychological comfort. Is there a reason or in hindsight do we devise reasons? In taking a motorcycle class one time the instructor noted that the latest terminology was "wreck" not "accident"; in that everything was traced back to someone's fault. GOD is our default reason it seems to find a reason when reason can't be determined or be understood. "God said it and that settles it". But "who" did the writing of "what" God "said"? We frail creatures who determined others to be inspired. My head hurts and heart aches with the overwhelming and emotionally breaking of a life striving to figure out the ever elusiveness of what is truth; as every sermon changes with perception and agenda to be purported to be as from GOD.