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BAD Nukes Coming!!!

Embattled Israeli leader faces tough task fighting nuke deal

"Israel is not bound by this deal with Iran because Iran continues to seek our destruction," he said. "We will always defend ourselves."

Yoaz Hendel, a former Netanyahu spokesman, said Tuesday's deal marked a "big failure" for his former boss. But he said some of the criticism was unfair, saying the U.S. had acted to protect its own interests and even at times of warm relations, past prime ministers have lost important diplomatic battles with American presidents.
"I'm not sure a personal relationship and personal feelings would change anything," he said.

THE STAFF

   The Priest Vethdema was injured in a fall one day.  After he fell down the stairs of Varlendur he cut a thin branch from an orchid tree and used it as a staff.  Thereafter he walked with a limp in the right foot.  The orchid staff was passed to the successor, Nolmithlon.  Upon his death bed, Nolmithlon cut a braided lock of Vethdema’s hair; later he fashioned it to the staff.  The third priest, Aeradreth did the same with Nolmithlon’s braided hair and all those who followed in his footsteps.  All of the priest thereafter wore a single braided strain on their left side in honor of Vethdema, the first High Priest of Mithar.
   It was also Aeradreth who cut and polished the great spiraled trench into the wood grain of the staff.  He embellished the spiral grove with the sigils of the Priest’s House, and their names were written in Sinenya.  The script thereafter was used only by the priesthood.  It was Malladek who carved the top of the staff, and his successor Nal Kahass who wrote The Blessing verse atop the raised spiral rib.  The sixth priest was Shayna and he wrote the verse and designed at the base.  The seventh priest, Yelomen carved the hoof at the bottom tip, thus completing the embellishments of the staff.
   Just as the Scepter belonged to the King this staff belong to the High Priest and became the symbol of The Priesthood.  Each priest wore a white vest-tail in front, this was sashed, and a heavy dark-blue robe was worn over this. Such was the dress and manner of his office.  Each priest added prayers and rituals and devised new aspects of ceremonies for the formal occasions so the people would be ever mindful to the times and seasons worthy to be recalled.

   The Day of Eru, (The One) was the third day to the third week of the third month of the year.  No formal work was allowed, by order of the king and a day of rest to remember that God was above the King, and the king was to favor his people on this day.  Feast and royal stores were freely opened up unto the people.


WATCHER'S BOOK


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MITHAR's Morning Pray

   It had become the practice of the priest to burn inscense in the Great Meeting Hall of Mithar early in the morning hours.  Just before day break the priest would open its great door and ceremoniously chant songs about the Great Departure.  Lamenting prayer began the morning call to prayer for the city.  At the first call the people would stand where ever they were found walking, or called to rise from their slumber if in bed; and face the twin peaks of the Bay of Luhun. 
   “Beyond the Sun and Moon peaks
far from the rim of the world
our departed kin are forever
remembered lost from us.
   Hope we do ring out our bell
and beacon light shone forth
the way back to us may they
someday welcomingly return.”


Morning Prayers; Lord Vethdema (GD2)

WATCHER'S BOOK


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THE WALL OF SHROUDS

 

 In all their funeral ceremonies the Watchers always wore their best robes, and always red.  With the death of Lord Baal’yick the era of the last-elves of Middle-earth had finally ended.  The children of the Watchers and their mixed race Nephilim grandchildren carried on, albeit as now mortal as men.  
   The offspring of the Watchers continued their rituals and invented more; they in turn wore dark blue robes as a memorial to those ancient fathers.

   Three weeks after the passing of the last Watcher, Brath Boarland the Smith fashioned from beaten brass the likeness of the Watchers.  He depicted them shrouded and bound with cords in their burial robes as they were upon their funeral pyres.  With great ceremonial pomp the circumstance of the installation of those panels was most momentous.  Lining the inner walls of the Great Hall, the shrouded figures covered up the intricate dwarven designs.  Lamps had to be brought into that darkened chamber for the mithrel silver and gold inlaid walls no longer brightened on their own.


   A year and a day after the shrouded figures lined the walls of the Great Halls, a solemn ceremony saw the Watcher’s Urn carried with two poles up to the tower heights of Varlendur’s many steps.  Within that tower’s fifth floor the Urn resided as a mystery, for few thereafter beheld its detailed wonder.  In time rituals and songs about it were devised, and only the elite came to see it.


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NUTHORLAN

   On the ninth day after Legandriel’s passing a new king rose to power.  The scepter, ring and crown of Mithar were presented to Lord Nuthcorlan as the king.  It came as no surprise to the remaining Watchers and growing numbers of those allowed to reside behind the great walls that he would be the one.  The people had great and genuine affections upon him.

   Nuthcorlan and Legandriel were as inseparable as shadows.  Each was faithful brothers one to the other as their friendships had been forged in the depths of the Great War.  Nuthcorlan had served as adviser to the one he now replaced as king.


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THE TALE OF FAYENDAR

( I )

He fled his father’s home
for the adventures of self-discovery
under the banner of a new king
who sought an elven realm afar.

Yet feeling betrayed to anger his
elder brother Calan pursued
the younger Fayendar with might of arms
of his own, to came against in strife
those rebellious freedom seekers heading east.

A great departure of their own
ancient forefathers had seen many
sail beyond the rim of the world
from the eternal lands of their
precious living-fair undead.

Those who remained behind did
fashion a new society of dreamers,
teachers and leaders of lesser men,
those weaker sons of Adam
who survived the gore of war.

From that lot of the frail
disenchanted ones of great loss
Fayendar, like Nadan before him,
sought only truth and a higher calling
more than rote ritual of vain ways.

Taking sides with his bitter dying father
Calan scorned Fayendar for leaving
under the banner of one called
king, by his own force of will was
uncrowned by Mithar’s Nephilim sons.

Yet Varlenfay proved his wrath against
the trolls and boars that fell
upon Lindol and its desolation
by which he gained his fame of might.

For from the Iron Hills north they came
with vengeance unknown with brutal
force upon their wild boar steads
the stench of trolls made their havoc.

Nine hundred fell that day yet by
Valenfay’s swift blade nine hundred
were saved and called him king
of valor as the Mithar aided not their case.


WATCHER'S BOOK


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SONGS OF GALADIR (For Lord Symordare)

Come now and remember the Dead,
For he loved life to its fullest,
breathing in adventures grave and small.
Many paths and lives he wove,
Among the fabric of his own;
A tapestry of interest and caring,
a life of seeking and sharing.
To remember him is to recall
Yourself, for we all, here shared
In some brief measure, a smile
before his passing joy and days.

Watcher's Book


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The Sigh

A frail and brief thing
It is this thing called life,
held together by a tenuous faint line.
Love is high in excitement
As lustful passions do race
Yet even it fades in time.
Eager days of youth burns
Fast its candle at both ends
With the breath of eternity.
Through foresight of experience
And wisdom’s repeated play
The aged reap the rewards of longevity.
If only the most elderly among us
Could embrace the vitality of
Bygone days without death; what joy.
The sorrow of regret is to miss
Clarity, before embarking into
The harsh lessons of the undoable.
The shame of failure is that
Achievements grasp are lost to
In the distractions of the heart.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Having not be programmed from my youth to be "into" holiday and celebrations as an adult I could take them or leave them; holidays aren't a big deal to me.  I enjoy the social gathering of Thanksgiving and Christmas with family and friends when such have occurred. My childhood was not replete with such; today I enjoy them, but only if others include me, of my own they would not be missed so much.  I miss people, friends laughter and smiles.
  Yet; on Facebook (which sends out Birthday notices) I seem to have gotten "missed".  Which is more meaningful: (A) "WOW, Is that a new dress you have? Looks great!" -or- (B) "Did you even notice my dress?"  I think "A" is more meaningful. Sure you get the compliment afterward the question, but "being noticed" "being REMEMBERED" is the point. Happy Birthday may seem trite and over used or outdated by 52; even for someone like me who isn't a great fan of "parties". But "being remembered" is always a good thing.
Guess I'm rambling or venting about nothing.  But it's my nothing. I got a text from a friend who remembered; it set my whole day with excitement. It's nice being "not forgotten". Sigh. I know some day (don't know when), I will die like all men and like my fathers before me; but it would be nice to be "remembered" - even in this life.
I guess I'm turning a new milestone corner. Believe it or not I really don't "worry" about all the things I use to.  Youth was spent in a haze of constant doom and gloom filled thoughts; much of that is so behind me.  Entering my 50s.  Feeling old and ancient; yet there is a reinvention of self and a renewing of this Next Phase of my existence. To be remembered; what is it that I will be remembered for? Everyone will have a different answer to that one question, I have no control of the answers, because all of them will be correct.  But would they be recalls that I would wish as my legacy?  All I can do, all we can do is live in the moment of today and strive it is better and built upon the lessons learned from past mistakes.

Maybe I do care after all. . . .


I'm kicking myself over nothing. maybe im afraid ive contributed nothing to be remembered for. maybe im feeling old. maybe i wish id had a better upbringing, one with more celebration "like everyone else" maybe im not worth remembering... feeling blue today.....

 sometimes i fight inside to feel "happy", sometimes I fight to see myself as "the good things" others say about me. sometimes i tell myself others are right, "fake their smile" and it will become how i view myself. i havent felt this "blue" in a vry long time.


 thanks... ive never understood why people do; seriously, but ... thank you... old feelings seeping in... not feeling good today... if people really honestly knew how much i fake smiling. i dont get a lot of people's jokes, feel like i miss so many social comments, havent seen even a quarter of all the movies people talk about, I constantly feel "in the dark". im a master of nothing, not ever a jack. im trying to learn my new job title at work and insecurely behind the learning curve of every aspect of everything. i really hate that some people view me as a bigoted gay-hater; which im not, lol every gay i kno personally are the most amazing, creative and intelligent people id love to emulate and immensely admire! My DNA brain wiring has been so strongly infused with things; just who i am. im fighting darkness right now and if you only knew an aroma of what that even meant frown emoticon *sigh* really thinking strongly about just droppinig Facebook altogether frown emoticon

.....if people only knew how much i cry to myself, theyd be amazed...
thinking about just deleting my Blogs altogether...
*sigh*
blue is not the right color today... maybe just "void black" is better.



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