I FEEL LIKE CRYING

I feel like crying
on sunny days when others laugh
during the most upbeat of songs are playing
as the rain pelts the window seal
I feel like weeping thinking of loss
yet I hold back the tear and smile instead
if others only knew just an aroma
of the depths things held back
much was evaporated under the blood
though its void is ever present
i know beyond knowing its still there
though i want it gone its who i am

~ David DeLane Snow